I wish you could read my mind, so that you sense this feeling, it makes me so much stronger! It make me believe that I can fly in the air to wherever I wish.
My dear, I wish you never lose the sense of reality.
I'll tell you what, I had the same thoughts when I was 16. Thank you God, for not letting me continue gaining knowledge and understanding, that almost killed me and separated me from others mentally! because there was too much knowledge, that was getting into my brain faster that one human being could have comprehended, but I was able to. It almost like my brain never listened to me, it made me feel so different from everyone else, because they saw that I'm different, and most of the people either didn't take me seriously or were scared to death from my irrationality. It made me feel so emotionally lonely, so hopeless, so desperate for understanding from others, so desperate to share, I can't even explain now what to share.
Thank you God for giving me ability to stop the process of this madness and giving me chance to be normal! I am so glad I can control the flow of understanding in my head. I am so glad I know how not to think and just enjoy the life, without understanding it. I am so glad I can be happy and love other people and see the beauty in them, nomatter if they understand me or not. I almost so glad that I can make myself to be stupid!
I think that you have a choice: to be happy with people, or to be genius and stay lonely for the rest of your life. You can't have both at the same time.
Thank you God for giving me ability to stop the process of this madness and giving me chance to be normal! I am so glad I can control the flow of understanding in my head. I am so glad I know how not to think and just enjoy the life, without understanding it. I am so glad I can be happy and love other people and see the beauty in them, nomatter if they understand me or not. I almost so glad that I can make myself to be stupid!
I think that you have a choice: to be happy with people, or to be genius and stay lonely for the rest of your life. You can't have both at the same time.
And I will tell you this: what you wrote above sounds like a copy-paste from average MD-PHD-shrink lecture on how to treat a 'maladjustment disorder' among the average ****sterheads.
I think if I was under 11 it would somewhat impress me.
Sorry, I just wanted to share. I hope you understand.
If you are not phony and everything you say is true, then you should understand and believe me that I know how you feel.
You rather rely on certain pre-existing 'model'.
Like modern psychiatrist would.
You would check the boxes on multiple choice questionnaire and - there you would have an evaluation of what type of person you are dealing with, based on statistic method that compares the results with many others who checked similar boxes.
But, you should know it by now, there is no 'group' of people like me , at least not large enough to be properly evaluated and made a part of statistical measures.
When you talk to me you literally lack such model and for lack of it you fit me into the group that I don't belong to but that you think is most likely befitting me.
Simple as that.
I wish you the best and I wish you to find that middle........!!! And I wish you to find that person if you haven't yet !!! And I wish you to know love and become complete and beautiful and be able to share it with others and yourself !
I am fairly rational and compromising individual in my daily life.
You see, I am far beyond your comprehension...
My Very Best Wishes To You All,
IE
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